Hey friends, today’s blog post is pretty casual and kind of vulnerable for me to post. I haven’t written in a while because there has been a lot of transition in my life that I will soon share about! I am writing this blog to be 1) authentic with everyone that reads my blogs and 2) encourage others who might be in similar situations as me. The past couple of months I have learned and experienced a lot, where God reminded me of who He is in my life. The older I get, the more mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and physically mature I become. The one phrase that my friends and I have been quoting since the beginning of 2021, is to “Let Go, and Let God.” It is so easy to say, but so hard to do and I am going to share today why that phrase is so relevant in my life during this season.
As young adults, we have so much to look forward to. We are in this weird stage where we are old enough to carry ourselves and make “grown” decisions, but we are also in the stage where we aren’t fully ready to be sent off in the real world. Meaning we still glean from our parents, and we are probably not fully stable to be on our own yet, which is okay, because it is during this time where we continue to grow and cultivate ourselves to be ready for when that time to leave comes.
With that being said, I recently went through a situation where I had to completely give up people in my life to God. I had to give up a situation/people so God can have all of me. God continuously reminds me to die to myself, pick up my cross, do the work of Him, and let Him take control of my life.There are things that I want and aspire in life, but if it is not in God’s will, then it is not in God’s will and He will make that known if you let Him have access to that area in your life.
The past couple of weeks, I have been feeling anxious and restless more than ever before. Usually, whenever I feel an imbalance in my mental, spiritual, or physical health, I make myself aware of the issue and I do everything I can to overcome that state through prayer, cleansing, reading the Word, etc. However, in this case I was still doing those practices but I wasn’t allowing God to take full control of some aspects of my life.
The root of my anxiousness, moodiness, and restlessness stemmed from me not letting God take control of an area of my life – in this case it was control over my friendships/relationships with people.There were people in my life who I adored and loved talking to on a daily basis. People who I saw a genuine future with and people who I thought I would grow with. I didn’t want to give them up because I was fearful that if I gave them to God, God would remove them from my life. Overtime, the longer I prolonged the friendships the more anxious I got and the more clouded I felt mentally/spiritually. With me not letting God have full control over the situation, the mindset/approach of me not fully surrendering was eating me up alive. I was selfishly protecting friendships I had, so I wouldn’t risk the idea of losing people.
It wasn’t until a few nights ago, I finally came to the point where I didn’t want to feel that heaviness or anxiousness anymore. It was in that moment of being present with the Holy Spirit and getting the conviction to give God access to my friendships/relationships with people. It was me saying “God if they are meant for me, I trust you will make it known they’re supposed to be in my life. If not, then I trust You will bring people into my life that will grow with me in all aspects. I give you full control over these friendships/relationships, and I hand them over to you.”
As soon as I gave up control and gave God my heart, I felt and saw the hand of God move! God really took control over the situation and He revealed to me what I needed to know. God was already showing me confirmation and signs the very next day on how to go about them. God was quickly answering my prayers and revealing evident signs of the direction I needed to take. Even though the decision and the conversations were hard to do, God was in the midst, and He filled every single void and emptiness I had when I let these people go. God did not give any room for the enemy to come in and fill any dry space. The spaces those people filled, God soon replaced with His love and grace.
The anxiousness and the heavy yoke that I was feeling the past couple of weeks, were lifted. The very next day, I was so full of Jesus I couldn’t contain it. There was an overwhelming overflow of God’s fullness, I couldn’t explain it with words, but in action. Everyone I was present with I just wanted to radiate joy and love into their life and situation.
There’s a different sense of peace and fullness when you just “Let Go and Let God.” God oversees. He knows more than we know. He hears and sees things that we don’t. He knows the end product – we don’t! Even though it’s hard to give it up to God because we’re afraid of the outcome of it all, just let it happen! Trust in the fact God’s ways are better than our ways!
Similar to the story of Abraham and Isaac (Genesis 22), what are we going to place on the altar? If God asks you to place someone or something on the altar, will you be willing and strong enough to do it? Abraham placed his son on the altar out of obedience to God, and God still rewarded Abraham afterwards. Sometimes God will give you back what you sacrificed, and sometimes He won’t out of your own protection. We need to have faith and obedience that Abraham holds.The willingness to just do because God says to. We shouldn’t be worried about the outcome, we should just be willing to “Let go and Let God.”
I love you all so much!
My Alabaster Box by Keilani Mayo
Written in 2021.